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Friday, September 10, 2010

Moments




“How would you define a moment?” I love this. It’s a great little film inspired by this short story:

“Sum” by David Eagleman:

In the afterlife you relive all your experiences, but this time with the events reshuffled into a new order: all the moments that share a quality are grouped together.

You spend two months driving the street in front of your house, seven months having sex. You sleep for thirty years without opening your eyes. For five months straight you flip through magazines while sitting on the toilet.

You take all your pain at once, all twenty-seven intense hours of it. Bones break, cars crash, skin is cut, babies are born. Once you make it through, it’s agony-free for the rest of your afterlife.

But that doesn’t mean it’s always pleasant. You spend six days clipping your nails. Fifteen months looking for lost items. Eighteen months waiting in line. Two years of boredom: staring out a bus window, sitting in an airport terminal. One year reading books. Your eyes hurt, and you itch, because you can’t take a shower until it’s your time to take your marathon two-hundred-day shower. Two weeks wondering what happens when you die. One minute realizing your body is falling. Seventy-seven hours of confusion. One hour realizing you’ve forgotten someone’s name. Three weeks realizing you are wrong. Two days lying. Six weeks waiting for a green light. Seven hours vomiting. Fourteen minutes experiencing pure joy. Three months doing laundry. Fifteen hours writing your signature. Two days tying shoelaces. Sixty-seven days of heartbreak. Five weeks driving lost. Three days calculating restaurant tips. Fifty-one days deciding what to wear. Nine days pretending you know what is being talked about. Two weeks counting money. Eighteen days staring into the refrigerator. Thirty-four days longing. Six months watching commercials. Four weeks sitting in thought, wondering if there is something better you could be doing with your time. Three years swallowing food. Five days working buttons and zippers. Four minutes wondering what your life would be like if you reshuffled the order of events. In this part of the afterlife, you imagine something analogous to your Earthly life, and the thought is blissful: a life where episodes are split into tiny swallowable pieces, where moments do not endure, where one experiences the joy of jumping from one event to the next like a child hopping from spot to spot on the burning sand.


I’m really sorry I’ve been gone. I am okay. I am hopping from spot to spot on burning sand. I hope you are okay, too.

Lots and lots of love <3

5 comments:

mariposai said...

It's good to hear from you...hope things get better for you soon <3

Hugs

Sarah x

Life With the Hobans said...

This is beautiful! Thank you and missed you! I second Sarah and hope things get better for you soon.

elk said...

It's so good to see you back :)
I never knew that about time! While it may be logical, it's all a little bizarre! It reminded me of J G Ballard's story Chronopolis. I now have a sudden desire to learn about the history of time. It's such a strange thing, really.

Reading that makes me appreciate that things are so split up. I fear I would possibly spend more than fifteen months looking for lost things and more than seventy-seven hours of confusion. The two are probably correlated in some way: I spend a lot of time wondering how the hell I lost something, considering it was JUST in my hand, and that I've been sat in the same spot on the floor for two hours.
It baffles me, it really does. But there you have it. Personally I blame baby universes popping up unexpectedly.
I still have to read the end half of 'Sum'. It got lost amongst all that dissertational research. It will get read though, after this reminder :)

This video is lovely. We may be destructive and flawed at times, as a whole, but people really are quite lovely. When you see all thse isolated moments stuck together we're like slightly baffled creatures, so new in the world. And vulnerable.

I really hope you can find a spot to stand on without hopping, soon, where you can be at ease. It's so good to hear from you, though, and there is no need to apologise for being gone :) We all need to disappear at times.
Oh, and please still be expecting post at some point. My intentions are there, but I'm waiting for the 'right' thing :)
Thank you so very much for being in the world.
xxx

Angela said...

I had a dream that you wrote another post, and here it is, beautiful as always. Unfortunately, I know what you mean about hopping from foot to foot on burning sand. I hope it gets better soon. I love you so much, and wish for your pain to go away, and that you will find some peace.
Sending {{{HUGS}}}

Anonymous said...

I love the moment video. I saw it when I read your blog the other day, and after bookmarking it, have watched it several times.
So neat. :)
Hope things are going well with you tonight.
Take care,
Katrina